all i want is to continue to learn, to grow, to create. the near-constant presence of blue space between my skin and my flesh makes the learning, growing, and creating increasingly difficult. my thoughts are too often in the future, worrying, what if-ing. or in the past, asking why why why? i am trying my very hardest to be present. how can i truly live, how can i achieve all i want to when i am either living in the future or in what has been? being present is so terribly important. be present. take up space. live. grow. create.